THE ROOM FELT isolated ; dark, && naomi never felt comfortable. it was quiet && no one else was known in the same room — she situates into a corner, arms embraced her legs as they’re placed under her chin, eyelid droop with brows falling. her anxiety starts to build in, kicking in her self-loathing, the urge to D E S T R O Y her being burns within her veins.
naomi is alone. no one there to help her, no one is there to tell her it’s going to be okay — NO ONE to reassure && erasing hatred thoughts out from her consciousness. memories of her past ; her bullies stick in her vision — && it frightens her. she’d remember their voices — their words — && their PUNCHES.
as it flashes straight into the outbreak. where she lost her parents — her friends ; her dignity. all the companions that came && went, her best friend Cecilia, her siblings ; all because of her I M P U L S I V E&&RECKLESS attitude.
she finds a sharp piece of glass by her, a hand pulls up her sleeve — as her vision starts to BLUR with tears. her old habits returning with a vengeance. her heart starts to sink, her throat dry, skin trembling. but not a thought passes && naomi quickly grasps that glass in her frail hand && the sharp end trails over her, already, scarred arm from before — going over old ones, yet creating new ones as she goes along.
‘ what have i done… ‘ ‘ what have i done ?? ‘
by now her arm is drenched in crimson. a wave of regret fill her senses ;&& there she finally breaks down. harder to breathe. harder to SEE, harder to h e a r. naomi never noticed elliot as he walks in, instead her palm slaps onto her leaking arm, all she could taste was her tears&& feel her hand wetter by seconds.
“Y’… Y’ know I can’t stay. But we can run away, t’ gether… Things’ll be better. I promise.”
❝ And how many times are ya gonna keep sayin’ that? ❞
❝ When will things be better? – Hardly. You say this – you say tha’… things can’t be better, Luke, no matter what we do – they don’t turn out better; but w o r s e! ❞
[tears threaten to swell in her irises.]
❝ … I stay with you ‘cause I believe in you… I love you; but sometimes I jus’ wish you r e a l i s e these things! ❞
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