

❛ I RESPECT YOU.
i know i C A N get int’ a lotta trouble…
but ye’ stay with me, && it makes me wonder ;
maybe there aren’t many arseholes as i
expected. ❜

I like you // I love you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’d kill you if I got the chance // I want you to like me // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I pity you // I respect you // I trust you // I feel protective of you // I’d invite you with me to parties // I’d lend you my money // I’d borrow your money // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // I’m upset with you // You’re nice // You’re mean // I’m envious of you // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I look up to you // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better

I like you // I love you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’d kill you if I got the chance // I want you to like me // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I pity you // I respect you // I trust you // I feel protective of you // I’d invite you with me to parties // I’d lend you my money // I’d borrow your money // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // I’m upset with you // You’re nice //
You’re mean// I’m envious of you // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I look up to you // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better

THE ROOM FELT isolated ; dark, && naomi never
felt comfortable. it was quiet && no one else was known in the
same room — she situates into a corner, arms embraced her
legs as they’re placed under her chin, eyelid droop with brows
falling. her anxiety starts to build in, kicking in her self-loathing,
the urge to D E S T R O Y her being burns within her veins.
naomi is alone. no one there to help her, no one is there to tell her
it’s going to be okay — NO ONE to reassure && erasing hatred
thoughts out from her consciousness. memories of her past ; her
bullies stick in her vision — && it frightens her. she’d remember
their voices — their words — && their PUNCHES.
as it flashes straight into the outbreak. where she lost her
parents — her friends ; her dignity. all the companions that
came && went, her best friend Cecilia, her siblings ; all
because of her I M P U L S I V E && RECKLESS attitude.
she finds a sharp piece of glass by her, a hand pulls up her
sleeve — as her vision starts to BLUR with tears. her old habits
returning with a vengeance. her heart starts to sink, her throat
dry, skin trembling. but not a thought passes && naomi quickly
grasps that glass in her frail hand && the sharp end trails over
her, already, scarred arm from before — going over old ones,
yet creating new ones as she goes along.
by now her arm is drenched in crimson. a wave of regret fill
her senses ; && there she finally breaks down. harder to breathe.
harder to SEE, harder to h e a r. naomi never noticed elliot as he
walks in, instead her palm slaps onto her leaking arm, all she could
taste was her tears && feel her hand wetter by seconds.

❛ —-i’m sorry.
i… understand. ❜
MAJORITY OF THE time when she claims that
( under ) statement ; it was only meant for EMPATHY. she’d
spit it if she w a n t e d to comfort someone — to make them
feel better that she could’ve gone through the same… yet,
it felt different ; it felt VALID. naomi lost her parents at the
start of the outbreak, && few months ( though it felt as years )
ago, her brother && sister disappeared from thin air. even if
LOSING loved ones was common now, it would never get old.

EVEN IF SHE didn’t want to ask ;
it was indeed debatable. as frail limbs hang by her
sides && her expression matched her state she is,
naomi wouldn’t DENY the offer.
❛ uhm– yeah, yeah…
though i’d hate t’ ask… ❜

❛ —I… GUESS
it did. can we bury th’ bodies
at least?? ‘cause… y’know, why not??❜

❛ LET’S JUST SAY ;
i was a r e c k l e s s child.
i loved the THRILL, the ADVENTURE.
but… gettin’ m’ hand sliced on a piece of glass
doesn’t sound fun— innit? ❜
❛ –Y’KNOW WHAT??
i C A N’ T do it, okay?!
how about ye’ fuckin’ do it instead of me??❜